some more days.

so i'm on day 30. or 31. i lost count so we'll call it 31. 
i'm kinda mixed emotions about all this. 
i'm not sure what i'll do when i can wear make up again. am i going to cake it on and feel like a million bucks or will i feel like a clown? 
husband wants me to throw my make up out completely and never look back (i don't see that happening)
i really miss mascara. does that mean i haven't learned my lesson? what's the lesson exactly? does it mean that i haven't gotten my closeness to Christ i was seeking because i'm still dreaming about putting mascara on again?
i've been saying "well i know for sure for my clients and meeting i will definitely be wearing make up. but maybe my other 'every day' will be without" but what does that mean? i still think then that my bare face isn't good enough for this world? i must be "put together" and "presentable to the clients" ??? 
i feel that i've learned a lot, i do. but maybe not enough? maybe there's always more to learn. hope so, anyways. 
i guess i'm not sure exactly what i wanted to get out of this but i do feel closer to Christ and i have been able to meditate on His Word and been so thankful for the way He created me. wow, the Creator of this universe took the time to create me. just the way i am, on purpose? that's pretty neat.
i'm staring to like my imperfections. i actually like my face now. husband loves it and i decided i'm not completely un-cute. 
i don't appreciate my oily skin or the size of my pores but i do appreciate the way He put me together. i attracted my husband this way and i think my babies will like the way i look, so i'm pretty excited about that. 
i feel like, i'm not going to look any different. whether i put make up on to "make over" my face, i still look the same way, just with globs of black, cream, and red goop on me. when i wash it off, my face is still there, i basically look the same, just with different things in the way. so i think it's been really crazy wonderful to keep the make up off and just see the way i look. now, i still think i'll enjoy putting make up on while listening to Kate Nash and singing my guts out but maybe i won't do it as much? maybe i won't apply as much but just a light coat? who knows. anyone of you other fresh-facers please let me know what you're doing! 

felt very ugly this night. but had so much fun. surprise late night trip to Bdubs and walmart with my handsome man. 

drive in movie date! i felt not pretty this night. my husband is so hot, honestly, it's annoying. i feel like i've married up and sometimes that's not fun cause i wanna feel like i'm the prettiest lady in all the land (i don't listen when he says i really am, because i don't feel it inside. sad)


this day i felt cute! my hair was adorable (or so i thought) and even though i had pimples i just was really focused on God this day. i had a great devo that morning with my coffee and was meeting my friend who just got married to shoot a bridal session and i was just feeling so confident. loved how i felt this day!

i get to work from home. Cat enjoys "helping" me work so i took this the other day. it's easy to work from home and be fresh faced. no one sees me so i feel fine. :?/

oh this was day 30 (so i AM on 31 now!) i feel confident in my husband's love for me and God's design so i was rocking it today. it's funny how confidence makes one prettier. 

this was last night before Bible study. he makes me swoon. 
also not feeling it here. but totally feeling him if you know what i mean. (we're married, it's okay)