some days & some feelings :: personal story


God is so good. 
i'm so thankful for my marriage. 
november is the month i met ethan so around this time of year is my favorite.
 i love the crisp air and remembering everything about the day that started it all. 
we are just having so much fun living and learning together. 
making mistakes and being of help to each other. 
i feel so blessed to have a husband who wants to be around me! 
me with all my silly and sinful ways. he cares about me and guides me. 
how blessed i am! 


so, we want babies, of course. 
and ethan makes me cry when he talks about how excited he is for me to mother his children
but we feel really blessed to just be the two of us. 
we have no idea when kids will happen for us and that's kind of a fun feeling but also a stressful feeling 

i always want to control what happens and plan things out for my life so i've been thinking we'd have babies just as soon as we got married! we both want 5 kids so let's get this party started! 
but it's not happening that way and as i meditate on the Scriptures i'm learning to be still and know that He is God and that is more than enough for my little heart. 

sometimes it's still hard because it seems like everyone is cute and pregnant right now, rubbing my face in the fact that i am not. (jerks) but i know it's because God has already written my story and He has something for us that i just can't see yet. 
He's begging me to come and be near Him. 
and some days i listen and wow, what a beautiful time that is! 
however, other times i get overwhelmed and unhappy and fill up my time with sinful thoughts. 


i've been waking up really joyful. i think meditating on Psalm 92:1-2 has really been making my life awesome. 

i've started writing what i'm thankful for in my husband that day each night on an index card and then reading it first thing in the morning. 
it's been making me fall in love with that man all over again each morning. 
i want to be a wife of encouragement to my hard working, loving husband, so starting the day feeling thankful for him is a really good jump start. 
i got the idea from a book written by linda dillow and i'm sure it's helped a lot of women love their husbands! 


halo 4 came out this week! 
so exciting because husband loves playing with his brother who lives a few hours away. 
it's a super fun way for them to stay connected and it's also what they grew up doing so it brings tons of fond memories to them while creating new ones. 
i secretly wish i was good at playing but husband tried to teach me once and it makes me SO dizzy. i just can't handle it. bleh. also it's just fun for him to have something without me, too. although i do like to watch the game. 


we went to visit my sister's family for her baby boy's 1st birthday. that was way fun. 
after the party people left, our family remained. 
we ordered pizza and talked and laughed.

brother's birthday is today so while we were all together we went around telling stories about him. 
our favorite memories, funny memories, etc. 
our family is full of love and i'm so thankful that as adults we're all able to still have relationships. it makes for really fun get togethers. 


we booked two more weddings this week! we are on cloud nine in the burt house, let me tell you! 
blessings all around. 
we both love our jobs and that is a crazy cool feeling. it's fun to see where we were 3 years ago and where we are now.


we went grocery shopping this week. 
 there is almost nothing more fun than grocery shopping.
true story
we found organic options for cream of chicken and cream of mushroom and i'm freaking out! 


we had a few errands to take care of in danville and it was a really nice day so we parked the car and then walked and walked. 
and held hands. 

i think the courthouse is so lovely. this super pretty tree with red bud-things was standing tall and pretty right in front of the courthouse so i had to stop to take a photo. 

all the fall colors are already gone but this tree was full and red. 
it really took my breath away. 

lately i've been feeling so blessed. i hope my life song always sings songs of praise to my Savior but it is much easier to do so when things are going swimmingly. i don't like that fact but it just seems to be so.