little life rambling.. i mean update.

I forget to blog a lot of the time. I just think I'm so busy with work and unless I'm posting about business or the latest photos, then it's a waste of time but I need to remember that this blog is to journal my sweet little life. The joys and the messes. So today, as I'm not feeling very well (I ate DQ ice cream. so really I was asking for it) I figured it was a good time to get a little blog update action. 


So.. hmm. What's new. 
Ethan is sick. 
This man rarely gets sick so when he does, I feel just so horrible for him because you know it serious if he calls off work. I came home today figuring he was just super busy at work since he didn't answer my text but he was at home totally knocked out in our bed. Poor adorable thing. We have a meeting tonight with a new 2014 bride and groom (whoo wooo!) but I'm not so sure he'll be coming with. (booo) 

I've never been this busy in my life. 
It is so hard to manage a job where you work for yourself, make your own hours, that type-a-thing. How many hours a day should I work? Should I take a day off? Half day only? Or just work till I drop to get these photos done? Can I hang out with friends? No, I need to work. Yikes. My brain is like on overdrive and I'm not sleeping due to photography related nightmares. I'm a hot mess, friends. 

I am so excited about this wedding season and anticipating next year. But I need to learn time/job management before I explode. 

We're saving up for a house and that can be stressful. 
Like it's so close to time I can almost taste our new home but still far enough away that I'm going nuts having to wait until that moving day. Lots of emotions. 

We're almost out of debt (YAY!) and then we'll be ready to purchase our first home. 
Saving up a downpayment is hardcore stuff, people. 

I believe it's the best way to go about it, because we won't be drowning in bills and debt but it's also so so hard when it's the first year in a brand new business, too. 
There are so many things we'd LOVE to purchase to grow our business and to better our gear but it's just not possible when we have to save everything we make. 

It's been really good for me. I'm the baby of my family so I'm used to getting anything I want and I learned at a very early age how to do that. I was really good at it and my loving parents hated it. Ha! They are good parents. And now they thank Ethan because he's so good for me. He's smart and doesn't just give in to my big brown begging eyes. It worked like a charm with my parents, what a wake up call to marry Ethan. ;) 

After a year of not purchasing anything for myself (clothes wise), I am ready to do it again! 
My friend Chelsea and I are going to do it again for another year. And then hopefully forever. The only things I could buy were cheap GoodWill finds or undergarments that you just shouldn't goodwill. But I am going to really try hard to not buy ANYTHING at all for one whole year. I'm sweating just thinking about it. Really, though. 

Ethan surprised me with a date to see Despicable Me 2 and we.loved.it. 
 It made us just want to foster/and/or/adopt a ton of babies, RIGHT NOW. 
Gosh, Agnes is the cutest cartoon kid ever created. 
I ask Ethan what he thinks about certain baby names all the time and he makes fun of almost all of them. So he came up with "Bert Birt Burt".. so that'll never happen. 
But it's fun. He's funny. He says I am weird and only think of weird names for our Burt babies. But, I don't care if everyone hates my baby names, I'm going to get my way at least with one of our children. :D 

I'm just getting really excited about the things to come. I am so excited to be in Danville. 
To live there, to be a part of the community, to grow with our friends and to minister with my husband. What a weird calling, to Danville, Illinois. But I know it's going to be great because God is at work. I would've loved to have been called to Maine or Colorado. Or Maine. Like really.. MAINE Please!
But Danville is all we hear, so to Danville we will go. 
"Where You go I'll go, Where You stay I'll stay, I will follow" 


Being married to Ethan is like hearing the sweetest poem ever written. 
He's incredible. He speaks so beautifully and he adores me. (I'm still trying to figure out why. But I am not complaining :)).
And I just get to relish in it. 

We've been going weekly to a marriage group with our church friends. 
What a brilliant idea. 
A few years ago we were so blessed with an amazing married couple who saw us meet, Ethan transform, and then get married. They have given us the best marriage advice and I feel that we are the way we are partially because God gave these two to us. To learn from and to grow with. 
Separately they are the two most amazing people I've ever met. She and I fit. He and Ethan fit. And together, watch out! They are just following hard after God and are ministering to ALL they come into contact with. They are amazing to look up to and I am truly thankful for them and for the perfect timing God had with all of us. Now they've moved away and we are so blessed to have found Connexion church. The couples we are meeting and slowly growing amazing,  life long friendships with are beyond what we could ask for. We felt so sad and lost after our friends  moved and we still miss them every.single.day. so much our hearts hurt some days but, God moved perfectly and we found Connexion exactly when we needed to. So here we are, a year later and we're making amazing memories with these folks. So, anyways the marriage group - what a brilliant idea. I think married Christian friends need to always continue meeting together. Young and "seasoned" couples. :)
We need to surround ourselves with people who will help guide us in the right direction, and for us to be that help to them as well. It's so nice to have people to hold you and your spouse accountable. 

Um. I haven't been baking bread like I'm supposed to be. So if I could grab someone to hold me accountable for that, that'd be great. 
I just get so lazy with the summer heat. Yeah, I'm going to use excuses. 
It's just hard. The heat causes me much more pain and then I just want to lay down instead. 
I love to cook and bake but I get into lulls and watch tv and eat cheese and crackers instead.
Oh, Ethan grilled us a steak one night so that was fun and we felt fancy. We never buy steak.

Ethan's pain has been higher lately so we've scheduled him back to see the same physical therapist I go to. We love him. He's a swell guy. 
So I'll see him too. I've been going about once every three weeks instead of two now. 
We really have been making progress with me. It's taken a good 1.5 years but I am getting to a much more manageable pain state which is really beautiful. I am so thankful my pain levels are less then my usual BAD.MISERABLE.SHOOT ME.AHHH. 

It's sometimes hard to have such pain every second of every day and look so "normal". People don't get it, and I get that. It's even harder since there's not an easy answer to the why. I usually don't like to talk about it and pretend I'm normal, which is another reason people don't get it, which is my own fault.

Living with a spouse who also has pain helps. I wish he didn't, but because he does, too, he can see and "get" my pain. We help each other be joyful through the hard days and try to take on each other's pain in the really hard times. Ethan is just the greatest human ever. 
I feel like we get to share in even greater joy because we experience the daily pain. It makes other things not seem as important. 

It's cooled off the last couple days so we've actually been able to hang out outside! 
Night time walks and talks. Awesome. 

I started a new read titled "Beyond Ordinary" by Justin(and Trisha) Davis. 
They went to LCC (now LCU but I'll always call it LCC) where my brother, sister and their spouses went. It's fun to read an author that I kinda sorta "know". 
It's good. I love reading books on marriage. It's sharing their struggles and successes in life, marriage, parenting, ministry, etc. and how to go from "ordinary" to "extraordinary" in your marriage. 

I think that's about it for now. I should update more often so I don't have to think "hmm what's going on?" Thanks for reading!