oh, marriage. || the wife life || love burt living
my cute married friends on IG call themselves that.
it's alright. they are just towels.
forget about the dishes for another night and just make out.
and grow. grow towards Christ.
don't sit still.
you will miss out on so much.
she has done this in the way she lives her life. i've been blessed with the opportunity to watch her as a wife and to watch her as a mother. i'm forever changed because God put them in our lives to mentor us. i know how important it is now because i have my own marriage.
that, does not come naturally to me.
i've asked before "really.. am i uptight? i just don't know if i'm like, that uptight"
(praise the Lord for a patient husband)
so for the sake of this blog post i just looked up the definition..
uptight: anxious or angry in a tense and overly controlled way.
it may as well have my picture next to it.
Lord Jesus, help me.
how is my husband supposed to be so happy to see me or plan a wonderful date night getaway just for me when i'm freaking out and stressing him out about how the house looks or the millions of emails and wedding contracts that need to be dealt with?
and don't get me started on the dishes and piles of paper everywhere.
how do we get so much paper. everywhere. ?!
who's bringing the papers here?
why do they even exist?
why do i hate paper so much?
like, i wouldn't want to hang out with me.
i can look at our days and think back on where my heart was during that day.
and i can tell you it was a bad day when my heart wasn't right.
i'd wonder why we fought so much or why i just thought he was such an annoyance and everything he did would make me crazy.
and then i'd remember that i was being a selfish jerk.
like, why do i think it's all about me?
i was not in a joyful mood. and i wasn't doing things with a cheerful heart.
i'm reminded that God wants to use me for good while i'm here.
and one way he uses me is in my marriage.
there is nothing better than when ethan is laughing up a storm and his eyes are smiling so big he has many eye/face wrinkles. that's literally the best.
i want more of that. i want to take part in making him that happy.
when i'm able to be carefree and thankful, he's able to be boyish and playful.
he just thrives. he feels energized and he gets things done.
he feels loved.
he feels like he's on top of the world.
i'm respecting him by remembering to love him well. and in a way that he can respond to.
he's always attentive but he's even more sweet and concerning about what needs i have.
and then he really wants to date me.
and he is the best date-planner-guy-ever.
we have to be very aware of how our words and our actions affect our men.
it's a true joy to be a wife.
it's an honor and a gift.
we need to do our best.
it's what we promised, isn't it?
remember the vows you made?
go back through them together and ask each other how you can do those better.
and be ready for the answer.
it's most certainly not always pretty. but the truth is awesome.
my wedding day was a blur.
i clearly remember ethan's face, perfectly remember his face actually but everything else was a blur until we were out of there and on our way home together.
but there were vows. we said them. and they are important.
no matter how many years pass.
or how much hurt has happened since that day.
start choosing to make it better.
when we fix our eyes and our hearts on the things that are good and pleasing to God, we are able to enjoy the blessing of each day instead of worry about
things that don't actually matter.
i am so thankful to be in this marriage.
that day in june
walking into that gorgeous little chapel to my sweet groom
i had no idea just how sweet it was going to be.