my life and my song || personal tidbits || my strange, random brain

i realized the other day that i've used the same brand of mascara since sophomore year of high school.
which was like 8 years ago. 
i feel like that's my longest commitment. ever. 

i'm really into gavin degraw's voice lately. 
like, his voice just rocks. 
his face reminds me of a pug puppy. which makes me laugh.
is that mean?

i've been enjoying the fall weather.
mustard yellow sweaters with boots and pumpkins and yellows and reds.
it's all been so good.

i've taken so may photographs in the last month that my head is actually spinning.
it's a wonderfully blissful feeling.
to be a part of people's lives in such a unique way.
i'm kinda loving it.

we went to trader joe's and got my favorite cheese dip.
so, life is good.

i'm looking for a new devotional and/or study to do on my own quiet time. 
if you have suggestions, please send them my way! 
something full, with rich pages and lots of room to take notes. 

is it weird to say that i think i finally get what i'm going to look like for my whole life?
like, i'm 25 now. so, that's pretty must done growing. 
of course i'll age, but you know, you look so different from high school to womanhood. 
but i think i look like me now. 
i have my mama's hair and lips, and my daddy's eyes. 

i had a happy childhood. 
i'm thankful. 
God became a part of my life very early on. 
but it wasn't until about 5 years ago that i actually surrendered my life/heart/soul to Jesus. 
it's been amazing. 

being ethan's wife feels like the only thing that has ever been and ever could be. 
i have that timehop app and it's so fun, i really enjoy it. 
my 7 years ago was before him! 
that's so beyond my brain now. 
it feels like this is all that's ever been. 
i am his. 
we belong together. 
this is our life. 
it's fun to see what was just months or moments prior to meeting him.
and remember our meeting time and our memories now. 

instagram has been the coolest thing ever. 
honestly i have met some of the best humans ever just from IG. 
it's not strange anymore to LOVE and KNOW someone very far away, 
only through social media. 
my heart loves that. 
some of them i'm finally meeting in real life! 
most we just still dream of meeting one day, and that's ok too! 

i slept with a "blankie" until after we were married. 
no joke. 

we are very thankful God has a plan for our family. 
and he's doing his plan and we're obeying and following. 
i just can't express it. 
it's so rich. 

i dream of neck surgery that fixes me. 
i dream of it often lately. 

i have a thing for notebooks, as most of my cutesy friends do. 
but, i never fill them. 
and i always lose them. 
and i always start news ones at the same time. confusing all. 
so i'm like where's the notebook with the black cover and the cute words that i took so and so's notes in? wait, no i think it's in the pink and gold leather notebook 
i just got from paper source. 
no, no. the pad folio! definitely in that. 
no? well. 
it's a problem. 

i'm mostly excited for parenthood and brooklyn nine nine this year. 
eeeep. 
we don't have tv, just hulu and netflix. 
so we get really excited to wait a while and then binge watch shows together. 
also, i do like once upon a time even though it's terrible acting and hurts my eyeballs to watch. it's just fun and i love characters and it's just, don't judge. i like it! 

okay, signing off! 
leaving with my handsome husband for 
a wonderful wedding weekend. 

what a joy! 

marriage & photography & Jesus. 
pretty much that's just IT.